Give me a hit

A shot to the head for my mistake,
A slap to the face for some sense.
A punch to the arm for the choice I made,
A kick to the balls for the doubt I made.
I want to knocked out and restart.
I want to get hit and stay down.
Let me fall and crash to the ground,
Let me fade and wash away.

I’m so mad at myself just…… I want to let her know she wins. I’m sorry.