A shot to the head for my mistake,
A slap to the face for some sense.
A punch to the arm for the choice I made,
A kick to the balls for the doubt I made.
I want to knocked out and restart.
I want to get hit and stay down.
Let me fall and crash to the ground,
Let me fade and wash away.
I’m so mad at myself just…… I want to let her know she wins. I’m sorry.
I thought about it, chose not to do it constantly.
But then one day chose to finally do it thinking hey maybe there is no worry….
WRONG the moment you finally make the action you dig your own grave.
I am disgusted with myself.
I wish only to prove the truth.
Instead I lost trust.